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There's like 10 days left until TAI... release their new album, and 32 days until I see them in April, how do you guys feel about the singles we have already?

Personally, I'm not a fan of the reverb used on 2005, or the dreamy sounding aspect of the singles I've heard, but, I do like L-Train the most.

But what do you all think?

"Oh time doesn't care about anyone or anything"

Current Mood: curious
Current Music: (Coffee's For Closers) - Fall Out Boy

xxb1tterb3ll4xx

So I wasn't gonna mention that I'm not in my house and city for spring break since I didn't think it would be relevant...but I think it's gonna start being relevant very soon. So I live in a very small town and my uncle (dad's side) lives in a very large city (I'm a Floridian just guess which one), and I think we're gonna be moving to this bigger city soon.

I don't know when, but it's a big possibility since there's more jobs here or something. I never really cared for the town I live in regularly, but idk how to feel now that there's a chance I'll leave. I love my dad and want him to not be stressed anymore, so I feel so selfish for not being okay with it. :(

I don't even know how to make myself feel better right now, my usual poison is listening to music, but even that's failing me, my stomach aches like hell because of this.

Mega unhappy face.

Current Mood: nauseated
Current Music: Everything We Had - The Academy Is...

bluelinebones_27

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Current Mood: Yearning
Current Music: Death of Seasons - AFI

tonyatthedisco

“Hand in mine, into your icy blues”

Today kind of pissed me off, but oh well. My brother made us late to pick up the puppies (we were gonna get new dogs) at the adoption center AND completely ignored what I was trying to explain to him. Then he kept poking and touching me. Obviously i told him to stop, as it was annoying, and I was already in a very bad mood. Guess what, he completely disregarded that too at continued to poke me. I was so mad.

I realized my posts have sprung up into some sort of love-bug-ish thread, and it seems very stalker-esque, at least to me. No I am not some crazy stalker obsessed with some random guy. I am a crazy stalker obsessed with my husband, Ryan (cue the dreamy 60s romance music) . I seemed to forget i need to disclose that here. IM MARRIED!! (7 months as of now YAYAY)

I have been very excited because this year on my birthday I get to go wherever I so choose. I’m picking to visit Ryan because this may be my only chance right now. At the moment we’re planning, as none of our parents know about our little forbidden love affair. My parents don’t even know i have online friends, and they would absolutely crucify me if they knew I had an online boyfriend.

no coffee today, but cookies!!!

X AND O- TONY

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Location: home
Current Music: :Demolition Lovers:My Chemical Romance:

deanlearnstolive

Sorry for not posting an entry in a while, no huge breakthroughs have happened since my last upload.

I saw one of my favourite bands ever in the world live the other night and I'm still reeling from the experience. It was incredible. Best concert of my life, and that is saying something.

I'm home alone for most of the week and that's a pretty terrifying thought. I hate being home alone so much. At least I have therapy in a few days.

Been feeling a little under the weather and really hoping it's not a cold or anything, that it will pass soon. We'll see - usually when I get sick, it hits me HARD for a few days then eases off. Really hoping it's not that because I can not afford to take any time off work right now.

Current Mood: sleepy

americasuitehearts

There’s an orchestra of ragged violins playing in my head
The bent strings vibrate in unadulterated anger
It’s a jagged sound—
One I will never get used to,
No matter how many times the chorus starts over

The TV static has leaked from the screen and to my eyes,
Rushing out to each and every vein in my body
I have a half-baked plan:
If I cut down to the fragile bones hidden under my pale wrists
Maybe I can get the buzzing to finally
Stop.

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: The Calendar Hung Itself… - Bright Eyes

locknkeyin

Touch my shoulder. it stays on my skin when you take back your hand. please keep me. please keep tonight and don't go anywhere. i can't rely on you to save me but you're doing it anyway and you don't even know. It's probably fairest this way.

youthsewage

i’ve been in a bad mood all week. or more like, i’ve been trying to cover up the mood with random crap that doesn’t even help- like i’m missing someone, or like my mind is just begging me to give up and go back to the miserable comfort of locking myself in my house and leaving everything behind.

rephrasing it, i think it’s just me trying to go back to the weird, sick safety of my depression. i hate it, and i hate myself for it. at the same time, it feels like something i’ll never escape. so for now, i’m just trying to figure myself out a bit more, but everyone and everything around me won't let me. maybe they’re just afraid they’ll lose me if i change- i hate that too.
as for my current night drama, there’s not much to tell. i tried to have a friendly talk with someone, but it turned sour and weird, leaving me feeling like shit again. i don’t understand these social rules where i’m to blame for someone elses shitty behhavior, but maybe that's just another weird thing about me.

my brain is just wired this way. like a curse i can’t get away from lol

goodnight, gabeee :- p

Current Mood: sleepy

tonyatthedisco

Can we dance in the beginning of your end

Ties untethered, unbreakable

I cry because of your flowers

I cry because i know

My sweet lilly

The valleys to far from you

Till it’s not even skin on skin

We’re just beating hearts in a mason jar

And yet that,

For me,

Will never be so close

I want to be connected to you,

To be sewn together

To be you

Let’s carve our names

And say our vows

No romeo

I want to kiss you

Teeth to teeth

Till their mangled from the wildness

I am an endless song

I don’t even have a catchy chorus

Yet, you still play the drums

With all your heart

I love you, lilly boy, but you are to far from the valley.

from me.

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Location: couch
Current Music: :Perfect: Dance Gavin Dance:

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Happy Saturday!

I'm going to be doing a little maintenance today. It will likely cause a tiny interruption of service (specifically for www.dreamwidth.org) on the order of 2-3 minutes while some settings propagate. If you're on a journal page, that should still work throughout!

If it doesn't work, the rollback plan is pretty quick, I'm just toggling a setting on how traffic gets to the site. I'll update this post if something goes wrong, but don't anticipate any interruption to be longer than 10 minutes even in a rollback situation.

einbeistrich

I’m waiting for boarding to begin. I had to put up with a jerk for 20 minutes who was determined to get a woman to tell him where she works and her name. Now I’m enjoying listening to the mix of German and Portuguese around me. How I love these two languages, no matter how ungrateful they may be. In the meantime, my heart aches. What should we do with the love we have for things and people when we can’t handle it properly? I still don’t quite know what to say about that. I just know that I’ve been trying to do everything at the last minute so I don’t have time to feel sadness or pain. It hasn’t been working.

P.S.: I didn’t get the internship I wanted because, according to the feedback, I’m overqualified for it. At the same time, I’m not qualified enough for the regular positions. WTF!

Current Location: Frankfurt Airport
Current Music: I Love You - Fontaines D. C.

reminiscencia

hi there. i haven't posted anything in a long time. actually, i haven't been journaling that much. i made a few updates in my physical diary, but that's about it. my life changed so much in february that i don't even know where to start. i'm also not sure if i like where my life's going, but i want to see to where i'll be leading myself.

the best thing that happened, by far, was the fact that I SAW MCR!!!!! they are my favorite band ever and against all odds i saw them live last month. best. day. ever. nothing will ever top that. i still get misty-eyed and lightheaded from thinking about it. take me back!!!! i must've watched my own footages 100+ times now and i still can't believe I WAS THE ONE WHO TOOK THE VIDEOS. I LOVE MCR SO SO SO MUCH >0<

one more thing... i'm in college now... which was kind of an impulsive decision. but let's see how this goes. worst case scenario, i end up killing myself or something. but i'm feeling positive!!! everything will be fine. the only thing that bothers me is all the money my parents are spending on me. i own them so much...
seriously though, uni is going well so far.

ps.: BEWARE THE IDES OF MARCH!

Current Mood: optimistic
Current Location: not my hometown anymore
Current Music: now listening: Kicking Your Crosses Down - Circa Survive

xxb1tterb3ll4xx

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Current Music: Golden - Fall Out Boy

locknkeyin

Seven weeks to go, and i should try to enjoy it. it's exactly what i wanted. i hope you'll sit outside with me when it's too hot.

tonyatthedisco

“Let’s be alone together”

I am finally ungrounded!

Today was good and bad, mostly good, or mostly bad…I can’t really tell. I’m officially on spring break which is AWSOME! I’ve been waiting for a break from all this mess. My mom also announced we’re getting a pupper tomorrow, also AWSOME! In school I had a really bad stomach ache, at some points I could barely pick up my chrome-book or move, but on the plus I got to head to the nurses office a lot and people carried my stuff.

By the end of the day we had a big party for people with perfect to almost-perfect attendance, I don’t know how I ended up in there but it was super fun. We got popcorn and a bunch of popsicles and got to play outside in the parking lot. I (mischievous as ever) got the AP to play PEAK (Fall Out Boy) for almost the whole time out there, turns out he is a big fan and went to some of their first big concerts (NOFAIRNOFAIRNOFAIIRR)

coffee day, very happy

You’re crazy and wild, my pretty lily, valley boy.

xOO- Tonyboy

Current Mood: loved
Current Location: couch
Current Music: :Alone Together:Fall Out Boy:

locknkeyin

Wish i was playing music. Wish i was swimming. got cold again here, all OK, but i caught myself daydreaming about warmer nights.

einbeistrich

I can't stop crying. I don't want to let it go.

Current Location: Heidelberg, Germany

shootuptill5am

i think its hard to be 20 and trying to figure everything out. every day gives me a new lesson that hits me in the stomach and makes me want to yak up poison. i swallow it down and it flows to my heart and it gets tainted and too much to hold. the pain in my chest is overwhelming, but i carry on anyway.

if there's one thing i can praise myself for, its my resilience and perseverance. i've grown to hate both words. but if someone were to ask me to pick a couple words to describe myself, i would choose those. i think that says something. i hate that i've experienced so many things that makes me choose those words. every so often i think i run out of fight, out of energy that makes me able to get through it all, but i push through anyway. it's impressive and sickening.

i miss too much, and i want too much, but i find myself back at the beginning of the same cycle whenever a big lesson gets thrown at me. maybe the universe is asking me to learn from my 'mistakes', but i am me. and i will continue to carry hope with me, even if i am hopeless.

may march be better here on out. this month is already a tough time of year.

Current Mood: tired

xxb1tterb3ll4xx

I got to cut class since 4th period, plus I'm not going tomorrow anyway so I got early springbreak! I need to buy the phone plan for my flip phone now that I have it (finally).

Testing is gonna start up now in April unfortunately, but its worth it for that feeling of utter relief when it's over, it does mean I have to actually learn math now, I absolutely hate algebra.

Though my reading exams have always been easy for me, I got the highest in my grade last quarter, plus I'm just best at reading and creative writing, it's my thing, sort of.

But I get to worry allllll about that after spring break, thankfully.

"As the smile ran away from his face"

Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Piano Man - Billy Joel

tonyatthedisco

" all the colors of the street signs, they remind me of the pickup truck out in front of your neighbor's house"

I just realized I've been doing my setup completely wrong this whole time. I'm such a moron. The title is supposed to be ya know, the TITLE, and the lyrics go above my paragraphs. I don't know if I'm gonna change the others to fit the layout or just keep it the same... eh...

I'm in class right now at my busiest. Busiest at doing nothing. I mean i finished some assignments I was missing but that's it.

today is soooo slow, but that's probably because its only the beginning.

It's later in the day now and guess what, it was so terrible. Actually no, my day was fine UNTIL a teacher pulled me out of 7th hour to "discuss" my little angry rant here. I said some words that got my laptop flagged. Now I have a meeting with the counselor tomorrow in my day. I don't want to talk to her, I don't trust any counselors, they make me mad.

They talked to my mom too; I was really mad about that. We talked and it's fine. I just told her it was a joke. All I know is I do NOT want to talk to some stupid counselor.

No coffee today, sad sad times :(

Xo- Tony

Current Mood: pissed off
Current Location: class
Current Music: :Chicago is so Two Years Ago:Fall Out Boy:

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i got nothing to confess

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Oh, Change Will Come, And Soon.

"Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist."

I watched the stars fall upon us

i sound like a perv

Little update

The conservation of sanity

breaking bottles in an empty lot

old aches become new again

To far from me

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FRA > GRU

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No Wit, No Conscience, and An Empty Stomach

Are you there?

ungrounded..finally

Don't slack off just yet

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"Bill, I believe this is killing me."

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