all you are is history

[butyourewrong]

what’s with people always assuming something is about them? it pisses me off..a lot. who even says you’re that relevant in someone’s life? and even if (and when) it’s about you, what makes you think you’re so special?

anyways. i hate how i know so much and so little about music. you think i’d be the fucking pop punk know-it-all because it’s all i talk about, but i feel like i know nothing.

i hate that caring so much about music makes me feel immature. i don’t want it to be something i grow out of. but when i hear the artists i look up to talking about how after their teenage years music didn’t mean as much, i can’t help but think it’s inevitable. i get so defensive about music because it’s something i can always turn to. something that’s still there when my nose stings, or when my nails mark my palms, or when my mouth hurts from smiling. so the idea of me not caring about it enough later in life is crazy to me.

i get so defensive about music because a lot of people don’t actually care. whether they only listen because they’re bored or to show off to someone they like. i hate posers

Comments

[locknkeyin]

i feel this way a lot. it's hardslashweird to care so much and still feel like you don't know anything and harder to think about not caring.

[butyourewrong]

exactly!! like if it’s all i care about now, what would i even do without it? what would i be without it?

[xxb1tterb3ll4xx]

I feel this way a lot when people tell me "it's just a phase", I get it's a meme to tell them " it's not" but it's makes me feel so superficial, because it feels like they're telling me this whole part of my life means nothing, simply because it'll end. Don't worry, your teenage years will ALWAYS have an impact on your life, and that includes music :)

[butyourewrong]

that’s a great way to look at it 🥹🥹 tysm