though i dont know what im waiting for

[butyourewrong]

not knowing where to stand with people makes me want to reach down my throat and pull out my lungs. id rather not be able to breathe than try to figure out whether i should cut you off or pretend i don't secretly want to gauge your eyes out. but it's already hard to breathe. you're supposed to be my friend. i shouldn't have to question if you're telling your friends everything i tell you. it makes my stomach churn. is our friendship even genuine, or are you just playing middle ground? i regret reaching back out to you, just a little.

i don't care what your friends say about me. if they call me names or whatnot. a portion of your group has had a crush on me before, including you. but wouldn't it throw you off? if all my friends talked bad about you but i never told you unless you asked? It's throwing me off. it wouldn't matter to you either way. you'd never have my back, or defend me, even though we're supposed to be friends. is it worth it? is it worth it? tell me if it's worth it in the end. worth losing a friend for a group who would drop you if it meant they could all get 10 dollars to split. they don't care about you. they don't even care about each other, you will never be an exception.

i dont think we'll be talking soon


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