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i recently learned that i've been mistaking jealousy for possessiveness. being possessive is one of my worst attributes. why am i upset because some random is talking to the girl i've only known for maybe a month? so stupid. i was sooo close to having a nice conversation with her but you had to poke your fat head in my way. i was here first, who even are you? just last week you were leaning against the wall all alone but now you know MY friend? i rarely ever get to see her, but you two go to the same school..talk later, or maybe never.

my pushover friend said "what if they're friends?" when i told her why i was upset. i don't care if they're friends, that's not the point. the point is that i always talk to my friend at c lunch, not this random geek. the friend-thief doesn't seem awful, not like me. shes cute i guess, and maybe i would've spoken to her in different circumstances. but now i want my friend's attention back asap

i wish i wasn't made to hate people as soon as they disrupt something of mine, and i wish i was more understanding, but i cant help it. maybe i need to be returned for defects..

anyway, i watched donnie darko after putting it off for so long. its my new favorite movie. jake gyllenhaal heh...

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