the only hope for me is you alone

[butyourewrong]

i have a new crush, it's bad. my face is still red and it's been about two hours since we last spoke.. i know im going to get strangely obsessed like always and be sad for two weeks when it's over. i just hope it works out this time though. i hope i wont be so upset if it doesn't end the way i want, but my insides are copper. id kill to make them gold.

my friend told me he likes some girl i hate. i hate her because shes annoying, basically told my old crush i liked him, interrupted my conversation to ask how many apples tall i think she is, and did i mention she was annoying? she ruined my chances with my last crush (not because she told him, but because they were already talking)(and he was already over me so she didnt actually ruin anything) and i feel like she would ruin my chances now. maybe not directly, but because she doesn't like him back from what i hear. if he's hung up on her, would he even notice me making moves/laughing at everything he says/staring at him/not being able to look him in the eyes? talking to boys is hard.

maybe i'll get over this soon, but i dont really want to. chasing is fun. does that make me a dog? im going to ask my gov teacher to sit us together. pls dont let this go south future self



xoxo

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[reminiscencia]

i hope it works out being in love hurts at the same time it's fun